WHY????

I am so puzzled by the world today.

I had a rough weekend emotionally but regrouping and back at work on Monday

I noticed someone came in to the office and I got up to greet and saw this customer that is a pain in the a$$. He always ask to see me which is fine I know that he is a pain.

W: hello, can I help you? (I think to myself push those thoughts of him being a pain and be positive)

C: Yes, is Wendy here today?

W: it's me Wendy ( I am far away so I can understand)

C: Why I did think it was you. You look so young

W: THANKS

C: well it could be because I'm getting older

W: What can I do for you (giggling because I know that is his humor)

I take care of his transaction and we get into a discussion of his family and how they are going through a tough time. I console him and tell him that I hope it works out the way it is supposed to be. I also tell him that I will think of his family ans pray for them (I never say things like that to customers because I don't share any type of religious or political views). As I stand up and tell him Happy Thanksgiving and re assure him that things will work out.

he states:

C: Don't eat too much you can't afford to put anymore weight on.

W: wow, OK, have a nice day

I was in total shock.

WHY would anyone say that.

I don't need to worry about what I eat on Thanksgiving I am not obese. Even if I was WHY does he feel he has the right to say something.

WHY do people feel they have a right to say something.

I didn't say have a better attitude don't be so negative and think that everyone is out to get you.

I came a way from this with angry but I have turned it into sympathy.

This person feels bad about his life and I would say does everyday. I have know him for several years and he always has the angry face on.

I can only say that I am not an angry person that I am a happy person and I feel bad for him.

I love myself and yes it did hurt when he told me that basically I am fat I know that I am not and I love me.

30 day challange

30 day challenge

oct. 23- nov. 23

Purpose:

refresh me/ balance me

Reasons:

1. get back on track

2. lose 8 pounds

How:

1. Eat healthy/whole foods

reduce pre-made/prepackage foods

lower salt & sugar intake

2. Drink water

8- 8oz

3. Exercise

3x a week

elliptical, Wii, DVD's

change up routine to stick with it

4. bring my lunch to work every day

5. allow myself treats

I don't believe in never ever having something again

everything in moderation

why:

i am the happiest that I have EVER been.

I am taking control of me.

I recognize that I am when I feel calm I do so much better in other aspects of my life.

i admit I like to be in control

i know that i can't control everything and i am OK with that

i also know that i can help keep things in control

i am in control of my finances

i am in control of my home

i am in control of loving me

i am in control of my happiness

i know that ANY day I can lose control

but

i can be prepared if that happens

I will be using the weight watchers points program.

I try to update everyday on how it is going, my thoughts, tips

I only will weigh in weekly and I will share my progress

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Today I received an email from Chelsea telling me she likes my blog. I was interested because I wasn't aware that people knew about my blog except to AP. As I am reading her email she expressed she liked the design and would like me to look at her blog. She told me that it's a new and she would like me to look around and give her feedback on what I think. From I can tell its a fashion blog that you give your advice/opinions on fashion, help others decide if clothing goes together and so on. I feel it's a great idea. I think I will explore a little more and go from there. Here's the link in case it's helpful to anyone else:

http://lookville.com

Let me know your thoughts!!

Wendy

Truth???

truth??

Are you truthful?

I am a truthful person

but.....

Sometimes I don't speak my truth

I just don't say anything

WHY???

I'm afraid that people will be hurt, that I will offended or get a negative response

WHY???

I don't like confrontation

I don't like attention on me (positive or negative)

I don't like disagreements

I don't like disappointment

STOP!

2010 has been a turning year in my life I vowed to try new things

I stopped and evaluated me

STOP

missing out on things I like

STOP

sitting back and not taking care of myself

STOP

being afraid of not hearing the answers that I want to hear

STOP

wondering what if.....

I vowed that 2010 is my year for trying new things

I have kept this vow and it feels so good

I need to still work on this vow

I will continue with this vow

sitting back and not enjoying things in not an option it's

Time

to start being me

Time

to do the things I want

Time

to enjoy everyday

Time

to be truthful out loud.